Free Trans Day of Visibility Cupcakes Cross Stitch Pattern Pride

Cupcakes Trans Colors Preview

Cross stitch pattern of some cupcakes in the trans flag colors for Trans Day of Visibility. Download the PDF version here: Cupcakes Trans Colors Pattern

Alternative color scheme: Cupcakes Pattern

Grid Size:62W x 71H
Design Area:4.29″ x 4.93″ (60 x 69 stitches)
Colors: 8

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I’m a trans enby, everyone! I go by they/them pronouns.

I finally made an appointment to see a doctor about hormones. It was a hard decision for me since I don’t really feel comfortable with doctors and needles, but I remember looking in the mirror at the faint mustache I was growing and realizing that it would never grow fuller. I can’t just wait for it to grow like a teenaged boy would and, people will always only see me as an ugly woman if I sit around and do nothing. I’ll never have that barbershop quartet/magical train engineer look without testosterone and when I grow old, I want to look more like Santa Clause than the Fairy Godmother.

Gender is weird for me though. Have you ever seen a character in a show and instantly liked them because they looked like you? Have you ever designed a character in a game to look just like you? Have you ever wanted to take a picture of yourself because you thought you looked perfect?

I don’t do these things, these normal things that everyone does. I don’t do them because the me I see in the mirror isn’t who I want to be. I don’t get a lot of dysphoria as other trans people do, but I do have a truckload of disassociation. I see other trans folks posting Picrews of their transition goals, and it’s so hard for me to relate because even with all those character creation tools, I can’t seem to imagine a face that I would want to have. I’ve made over a hundred characters and none of them look like me.

I’m starting to understand why people pick the voidgender label.

So I’m facing my fears. I finally got on Medicaid. I got myself a doctor from a clinic that is pro-lgbt and I’m going. I don’t know where I want to end up, but I do know that this is just another step to looking like me.

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